yes and no.

And I feel like i wanna post in other language...

These past days have been really awful, doctors detected cancer on my grandma's skin, i fought with my mom, my dad doesnt talk to me, my fav. cat died, i got assaulted and I dont know i feel weird about my bf, like i need some support but he didnt give it to me.

Besides all those things i feel kinda sad, well i feel sad, coz the schedule we have (my bf and I) is a really shitty one, we will barely see eachother, we have clases all morning on monday,wendsday and friday, those days we will have lunch together but if those days are like today i dont wanna have lunch with him, i mean i was really down (still) and he didnt even told me he was there for me or something like that, anyway with a little help from my friends i went through that shitty status. I feel like i may lose him and that is freaking me out like shit, i wish there would be a way to low the high levels of love i have for him so i wont miss him that much. The worst part is that i need to see him very often and in a prolongued period of time coz unfortunately i need to see that person to maintain that love and to not fall into temptation...fuck.